I can't jump into this again.
I feel like I am deciding to throw myself down a skyscraper, free fall and when you reach the bottom you've nowhere left to go.
I love you and I hate you so much for what you do to me.
I feel bad for giving you details of my life that make me feel so vulnerable.
You know all of me and I feel like I have no power left to defend myself from this hurricane of emotions.
You want sex.
I want sex.
I want love.
You want sex.
The rhythm changes and it's not melody but noise.
I want warmth.
I feel cold now.
I was again flying too high for my little wings. Someone told me, a long time ago, that I can't sit here and wait for someone to save me.
It's true, I am the prince charming. I am the one who should be saving the princess in need.
But I am tired to fight.
I want to sit here, and forget, forget how much I suffer and forget how good you make me feel.
I want to sit here and remember your hands, your lips, your body, his warmth...I want to pretend this was in the past, a long time ago.
I want to pretend It was a dream and it never happened.
I want to pretend you are just a creation of my mind, I want to keep on making love to you in my dreams so that I don't need to feel guilty for that.
I don't ever want to lose you, but maybe you don't need me. You need a warm body to fill your bed.
You need someone who can pretend life is easy.
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